Panic Attack (Fear)

Waking in the early hours

Feeling of foreboding

Fear consumes me

My heart beats faster and faster

SOMEBODY HELP ME?

I feel so cold

From the inside out

Is this where I die?

My breathing is all wrong

My lungs won’t fill

I CAN’T BREATHE!!

Catastrophic thoughts

Obliterate the logical

Please God

Not like this

HELP ME PLEASE!

Wave after wave

Nausea strikes

I retch and heave

Sparkles in my vision

Life flashes before me

The last movie I’ll ever see

I pray to my creator

To whoever is there

Make it stop

Or give me strength

To endure the end

I think of those I love

How can I leave them

When my job isn’t done?

I hear the clock

Its tick and chime

I hear my heart thump

As if I’m sprinting

Only I’m sitting still

I wait for it to explode

For life to end

Will it be afterlife?

Or annihilation?

Then it happens

My heartbeat slows

My lungs fill with air

The shaking subsides

I’m still here

I didn’t die

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